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take it as you will

Take It As You Will
1. Song for Roger May 4:28

There was a man named Roger May
He don’t want too much
The people say he wants your skin
Treated him as such
He’s got no money to his name
He believed in fate
He saved a child from a burning house
They locked him up in state

You give them more
They take
Don’t wait for recognition
They don’t care

One day he had a revelation
This isn’t anyway to live
Now he’s walking down the city streets
Shotgun at his feet
Nobody cared to thank him then
Now they run in fear
Forgotten all the good he’s done
The truth is hard to kill

You give them more
They take
Don’t wait for recognition
They don’t care

“You haven’t taken all there is!”
He walks behind an older woman
He puts the gun against her head
But he doesn’t shoot her yet

You play
These games
With yourself
Nobody around you
Ignorance
Of the truth

The ones that create
The life you take for granted
You kick them to the curb
Have them begging you for money
As you’re using all their goods

He sees a loathsome dog
Within the street
As he’s reminded of himself
He drops the gun
As he runs into the road
Still no one cares
To mark their tomb

2. Diane 4:41

Always know
That somebody can hurt you
Too much thought
Isn’t always a good thing
Squeeze him right
Now he’s whimpering softly
You’re just a child
They can’t help feeling gauntly

Your nails
Digging in
Breaking skin
Why don’t you move inside his head?
Disguise
Big surprise
Love this role
Why don’t you let him know?

So
Go
Your way
And fly
While you’re still standing
You can break
Control
And be
Free

Oh Diane
Won’t you tell me a story?
Mother’s gone
And she won’t be returning
Scared of dark
Now you’re taking him with you
When will you
Finally smother your plaything?

Your nails
Digging in
Breaking skin
Why don’t you move inside his head?
Disguise
Big surprise
Love this role
Why don’t you let him know?

So
Go
Your way
And fly
While you’re still standing
You can break
Control
And be
Free

Well I thought I would finally have retribution
But
In the end
What I found was the victim will tame the abuser
As they descend
Into pulling the rope on each-other’s nooses
They won’t comprehend
There’s denial but nothing will cause satisfaction
Like a mutual end

Your nails
Digging in
Breaking skin
Why don’t you move inside his head?
Disguise
Big surprise
Love this role
Why don’t you let him know?

So
Go
Your way
And fly
While you’re still standing
You can break
Control
And be
Free

3. Corner Stall 2:03

Oh well
I guess there ain’t
No place
To settle down
While they’re
Prancing
All around

Like an opera
Where they’ve
Turned off all the sound
For an act that’s more profound

Can't you find yourselves another corner stall?

Sticky lips
While I’m professing
To the floor
And he’s getting
Her the door

Quite effectively
Her hips the other way
With a smile that
Wants to play

Can't you find yourselves another corner stall?

I don’t want to sell my soul
The simple methods
Work too slow
Choosing leaves you
All alone
So now

Tell a brother
What you know
For the days
Such as these
To go
Home
Now
Stupid notions
Empty skulls

Can't you find yourselves another corner stall?

4. I Love Life 4:29

I don’t know anybody
Personal experiences matter
I don’t own anybody
Overwhelming rivers known to swallow
I can’t stand ordinary
Don’t expect understanding
Find a goal not a sorrow
Acting like a fool to not expire

I don’t mind
I just wanna find
Some time to be myself
For real

There’s a man on the highway
Laying there, but he ain’t suicidal
They’re enraged; he ain’t trying
Looking at the sky, no motivation
Faces strained, overbearing
Seems to feel like he’s living
Every day has a meaning
It just matters if you wanna find it

I don’t mind
I just wanna find
Some time to be myself
For real

Won’t you find me someone who is free?
Someone with a sense of decency
The herd has now decreed what must be done
Soon there won’t be no one free alone

They scurry around
And corner him
Nowhere to run
The look in their eyes
Of wolves at the end of
A gun

They drag by his shirt
And flailing hands
And feet
The sense of a mass
Corrupt with
Certainty

With blood on the walls
They crush his skull
And feast
Consuming him whole
To indulge in what feels

Real

5. Wisconsin 4:04

I’ve been
Awaiting for my friend
I know
She’ll show up here
Again

So what
Gives you
The motivation now?
Soulless hate
To trample on the sinless flower on the ground
It can’t be helped
The world keeps turning
So must I

I know
I haven’t got the crowd
I’ve been
Addicted and profound

So what
Gives you
The motivation now?
Soulless hate
To trample on the sinless flower on the ground
It can’t be helped
The world keeps turning
So must I

Single-file toddlers
Shoulders shrugging, watching snidely
Otherwise
Superstition’s sponsor
You'll be cutting out your heart
While they’ll be watching
From the side
That’s cozy
Sometimes nobody gets you

So what
Gives you
The motivation now?
Soulless hate
To trample on the sinless flower on the ground
It can’t be helped
The world keeps turning
So must I

Single-file toddlers
Shoulders shrugging, watching snidely
Otherwise
Superstition’s sponsor
You'll be cutting out your heart
While they’ll be watching
From the side
That’s cozy
Sometimes nobody gets you

6. Red Trees 4:37

I’m scared of knowing you
I need to see your eyes
Cannot let you go

We die a little on the inside
But it’s fine
Cannot live without it

Half of the time
I don’t know if I’m alive
You fill my days

I live through saving you
Though you make me survive
There’s always failure

Here

We lay here in the snow
Lost as to where
There is to go
To exist
In this moment
For a second more

Now foreign autumns
Your eyes now longer blue
Fragile yet so true

Remember days that
The leaves
Were green and new?
Burn just as we do

Don’t mind a little pain
It’s never all in vain
It keeps from drowning

Here

We lay here in the snow
Lost as to where
There is to go
To exist
In this moment
For a second more

I can’t stand here any longer
Can’t afford to lie again
I don’t mean to be a bother
Killing myself to live for you
Lay your piece
Inside the coffin
You remain inside my soul
Crushing waters
Bury me here

People congregate to pain

What you wanted from this life
Mostly rather tragic
I can’t tell you
What you want
What you’ve probably
Heard before
I’ve been down
Many different miles
Seen too many rainy days
You’ve got to create
Your reasons
To go on

So go
Find your way

I can’t stand here any longer
Can’t afford to lie again
I don’t mean to be a bother
Killing myself to live for you
Lay your piece
Inside the coffin
You remain inside my soul
Crushing waters
Bury me here

I cannot let you go
But I can’t save you
All of my efforts
Gone
There is no breakthrough
There’s no returning home
Why did I choose to know?
I think I’m scared to hear the truth